Thursday, August 09, 2007

More Waiting

It is amazing how things can change so drastically and quickly, without you ever realizing it. I am now waiting along with my family to see how things go with the newest edition to our family. My sister was due in 2 months, everything seemed normal until a week ago. An unexpected ultrasound found things wrong with the baby. The heart is too big and has a aneurysm growing on the side of it as well as water on the brain.

Through tests and meetings with cardiologists, it is extremely rare and they haven't seen anything like it. So the future holds lots of questions, wonder, and waiting for them. The baby might not make it till birth, or during or after birth. Since it's so rare they aren't sure what to expect, although we are all having faith and will take it day by day and see what the future brings. Miracles still happen.

My heart just broke for her when she told me, and throughout the last couple of weeks of prayer, fasting, and thoughts there are times where my heart just turns to them and all they must be going through. I can not even comprehend it. Being a mother myself I imagine that it has to be the hardest thing to go through, and they will have months ahead of very hard times. I hope they know how much we love them, and how we hurt for them.

I often find myself thinking of them during the days and just crying for the loss of the perfect baby they had been awaiting this whole time, as well as for the hard days ahead of them. Of all people they will be strong and be able to handle it, and hopefully I can be there to help lighten their load during it. My brother in law mentioned how grateful they are that they have moved closer to family in the last year, as they are going to be in need of all the help and support that they can get.

And despite whatever the outcome happens they know he's sealed to them and is eternally theirs whether in this life or the next. How amazing is that blessing and how grateful I am that God has made it possible for families to sealed together eternally... that this life is not the end. This has been the first time where something has hit so close to home that I feel the power of that promise and am so grateful for it.

It's amazing how the lord can test your faith by simply making you wait.


Mandy said...

I'm so sorry to hear this. Praying now.

Syndee said...

Oh Shalae, so sorry. Sending prayers to you and your family and especially that precious little one.