Yesterday was the start of my online class that I mentioned in a previous post. I am excited. I’ve enjoyed getting to know some of the other classmates and have enjoyed seeing the broad range of talent and creativity out there.
In the process of going through the class I’m going to be having a variety of thoughts (I already have after the first day) and am needing a place to collect some of them and share with the rest of the class members. What better place than this blog right. It’s the place to record my thoughts on being an artist, and this class is hopefully going to get me going in a direction on my personal art.
I have had quite a few thoughts and still need time to sit down and really think about the answers to some of the questions she asked, but one thing really hit hard yesterday after listening to her podcast. At the very beginning she just made the quick comment to make sure that we are taking care of ourselves. Making sure we are getting enough water, sleep, time to ourselves, etc. I agreed with her and didn’t think much about it until later after the podcast when I was trying to think about some of my answers to her questions.
At that moment, I realized I couldn’t concentrate and I was tired. (We got to bed late and then a 1 yr old decided after an entire year of being an incredible sleeper that she wasn’t going to do it that night.) After thinking how tired I was, how bad my back killed, and my lack of desire to do anything I started getting pounded in the head again with the thoughts of how important it is to take care of this physical body. I really think we don’t put the importance on it like we should. I know that it’s important and I try a little, but really I just sometimes stay up way too late, I don’t eat the greatest foods, I have too much sugar, I don’t always get exercise in, I don’t drink enough water, I don’t get outside in the sun enough etc.I really think our bodies get quite beat up and abused being mothers, especially mothers of little children. I’ve been going through this lesson over and over again this last year it seems. I don’t know why it hasn’t sunk in yet.
photo by: Mario Diogo
But after the miscarriage a little while ago I have realized that I have about 4 months or so to really concentrate on me. Really concentrating on taking care of this physical body. At the time I was thinking I really need to start eating better and healthier. My body felt so much better when I got out of the hospital and was drinking lots of water, and eating only good healthy food. Then I start getting better and you start eating a bit more junk and start drinking less water and before you know it… you don’t feel that great anymore.
But after yesterday I started realizing that this taking care of myself extends far beyond just eating good and exercising to loose weight. It means going to bed early. It means actually getting enough sleep, it means not taking on more than I need to -creating stress I don’t need. I know there is a huge connection between how well I am taking care of my body and how well I am doing spiritually. A HUGE connection. And yesterday I realized even more so how much of a connection there is between how I am feeling physically and spiritually to how well my creative side is doing. It affects whether or not I have creative ideas, if I’m able to execute them, if I feel inspired, if I’m able to concentrate, etc. It’s no wonder that lately I’m lacking that…. my body is lacking… which means I’m falling asleep during prayer and scripture study which means my spirit is lacking… which means my creativity is lacking…
This has got to change. It really does. It is probably one of the hardest things for me to change right now, but it has got to. I can’t expect to be where I want spiritually or creatively if I’m not first making sure this body is being well taken care of. So the goal… start changing how I’m abusing this body…. and expect to see great things happen.
I have additional thoughts on this class as well, and you’ll see them here sometime soon. Until then I need some water…. a lot of it.